My Battle With Porn

It was my 13th birthday.

I was on a bus trip with a group of guys. I was sitting on the right-hand side, one row from the back.

I was the youngest.

There was a magazine.

I can still see that image.  In a split second it was seared into my conscience.

In the March of 1989, a war began that has since raged savagely. The lines of engagement have ebbed and flowed. The enemy’s scouts continually seek to exploit my weaknesses. Both my defensive and offensive  strategies have needed to adjust over the years.

This has been my battle with Pornography.

For too many years I fought this battle in silence, ashamed that I would even think about verbalizing my struggle with this insidious tactic of the enemy.

But I must take up arms against this foe. I must battle this evil.

And so must you.

Regardless of the victories I have won, or the shame of my defeats – this is a battle that is waged everyday.

If you tell me that you don’t battle with this enemy – beware, he crouches at the door waiting to pounce.

If you are not in mortal battle with Porn, you will be devoured.

The War Against Your Soul

Whether you acknowledge it or not, a war is being waged against your soul; the passions of the flesh relentlessly buffeting your life in search of a chink whereby they may rip, tear and destroy.

Brothers and sisters, all are covered by this fog of tyranny. All must take up arms.

We are at war.

1 Peter 2:11 (ESV)

Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions  of the flesh, which wage war against your soul.

Romans 7:5 (ESV)

For while we were living in the flesh, our sinful passions, aroused by the law, were at work in our members to bear fruit for death.

If we do not resist. If we allow the assault on our soul to go unchallenged, the passions of the flesh plant seeds of destruction, seeds that bear the fruit of death.

But do not fear.

While these passions are our enemy, they are no longer our captor. We have been liberated through the body of Christ. We have been released.

Romans 7:4-6 (ESV)

4 Likewise, my brothers, you also have died to the law through the body of Christ, so that you may belong to another, to him who has been raised from the dead, in order that we may bear fruit for God. 5 For while we were living in the flesh, our sinful passions, aroused by the law, were at work in our members to bear fruit for death. 6 But now we are released from the law, having died to that which held us captive, so that we serve in the new way of the Spirit and not in the old way of the written code.

My battle – your battle – is not in vain.

By waging war against Porn, you shout with raised fist in the face of our enemy that you have not succumbed – that you have not laid down your weapons – that you have not, and will not, surrender.

What’s The Secret?

Moralistic incentives fail.

Lust will always trump logic.

Paul’s admission becomes ours.

Romans 7:15, 21-24 (ESV)

15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate…  21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?

Thanks Be To God…

Through Jesus Christ our Lord!

May I humbly suggest that concentrating all your efforts on ‘defense‘ may not be the best strategy.

For sure, make a covenant with your eyes like Job did. While you’re there, form an accountability partner. Yes, it is wise to place your computer in a public place within your home. Use internet filters. Decide in advance which movies you will view.

Do all these things and more.

But don’t settle for playing defense. Don’t think that you are powerless in this battle to the take the fight to the enemy.

There is one who has already won the victory, and victory in this war is not about your will or self-control. Victory in this war depends entirely on who you stand close to on the battlefield.

Keep In Step

Galatians 5:16-25 (ESV)

16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit,you are not under the law. 19 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, 21 envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit. (Emphasis mine)

Take up the offensive.

Walk in the footsteps of the Spirit as He masterfully and majestically picks His way through the battlefield.

Don’t fall behind. Don’t rush ahead.

Wait when He waits. Run when He runs.

Place your feet carefully, yes, but confidently.

Keep in step.

I look forward to the day when this earthly battle will finally be over; when I no longer need to stand on guard – when I can enjoy God’s design as He intended.

But until that day, my battle with Porn and his cohorts will continue.

And so should yours.

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3 thoughts on “My Battle With Porn

  1. Brave indeed, but I’ve found that bringing things into the light is an important step in robbing them of much of their power.

    Chris I agree, that standing close to Christ is foundational here. But I’ve found that when I’ve been in the grip of sin – specifically THIS sin – it can be very hard to see its practical relevance. On a practical level, it was seeing the negative EFFECT of porn on my marriage and indirectly on other relationships, that gave me the clarity of vision to see why staying close to Christ matters.

  2. What sparked this post was the realization that what was once considered ‘pornography’ is now deemed acceptable as ‘public advertising’. Regardless of the extent that we may be engaging with pornography, the ‘passions of the flesh’ (pornography only being one expression of these) are assaulting our soul on a daily basis. We need to ensure we are not using social and culturally driven definitions to ‘classify’ what is acceptable and what is not; this usually happens in the midst of ‘self-justification’. We must see this assault for what it is, a tactic used by Satan to deceive God’s people into believing they can find pleasure in the temporal rather than in their God.

    Steve, I completely agree that it is not until we have our eyes truly opened to the devastating effect that unbridled fleshly passions inflict on our lives and relationships that we will all the more cling to our Saviour and His forgiveness and grace.

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